if you're a romanian guy and your name is alex, there's a small chance you are despicable and disgusting

i had a nice time at home. much more than nice, actually - i'll post about it soon!

but there's one thing i want to get off my chest first. a not-so-nice story: as i was going through the first security check at the international airport in bucharest, i heard someone commenting: "i'm standing in line with a monkey." it was the guy behind me, and i didn't really understand what he was saying at first, but then it dawned on me that he was talking about the person who'd just gone through before me, a young woman who was black (and i believe romanian - i think i'd heard her speak romanian earlier). un-fucking-believable. i think (hope!) that at least she didn't hear the comment. and i was busy finishing unloading my stuff on the conveyor belt and then got directed towards the detector, so the moment passed and anyway the guy had been too far away for me to hit him. (if i'd been a little closer i really believe i might have actually forgotten all about being non-violent and slapped him upside the head.) i know the woman he was with saw me frowning ferociously because we made eye contact and she looked away, but he was staring into space the entire time he rattled off stupid shit. the woman's only reaction was "oh, alex!" - in a tiny scolding voice. but i got literally sick to my stomach and at the same time furious. then he continued: "what, it's not politically correct? tell me which term to use that would be politically correct." he was so aggressively smug, and so gross! ARRRRGH. i can't believe i didn't say anything. and so for more than 24 hours now i've been regretting that i didn't not go through the metal detector immediately and instead turn around and tell him that whatever "politically correct" means, what he did say was terrible, and stupid, and gross, and he should never think it/say it again (btw, somehow almost everyone i've heard complaining about being forced to be politically correct gets the actual term wrong - it's "politically correct" and "political correctness" not "political correct" and "politically correctness," you stupid assholes!). ARRRRGH. argh argh. i get so mad just thinking about it. mad at myself, too, for not saying anything to alex, romanian racist asshole extraordinaire. i did try to spot him afterwards and he was on the plane to amsterdam with me, only very far away. even so, i should've walked up to him and taken him to task. but i didn't.

anyway, that's it. i don't know what else to say, but are there really people so lost to all human decency?? i know very well that the answer is yes - and they can be much worse yet, but i almost still cannot believe it. as i almost cannot imagine getting called a dehumanizing name, being looked down upon and verbally assaulted by a stranger for just standing there, being me.